The second year after his adoption, he tattooed himself, he took drugs, he took risks, he did anything he could think of that might attract that cool glance, get a reaction, any reaction. (And Rukia became Byakuya's vice-captain and greeted him cheerfully when they met.)
The third year, he gave up.
Three different paths, and nothing worked, till death and life struck like twin hammers and changed everything.
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